At Times, I Think ...

At times, I sit and think about the time that’s gone by,

My heart feels a jolt and then I breathe a heavy sigh!

At times, I think why me?

Then my heart answers, ‘as that’s what was meant to be!’

At times, I wonder, will I move on?

“For sure!” says my heart, ‘just prod along!’

‘You’re doing great, please don’t stop!’

‘No more downhill from here, it’s just a tough way before you reach the top!’

At times, I feel luckier than many,

Then why is it that I have so many thoughts:  Uncanny?

To which I get answered, “An uncanny thought can always be changed”.

But to see within yourself, only gives you perspective, while being gauged.

Gauged by others!  Why should I care?

My mind answers slowly, “You can’t live without societal norms, even if you dare!”

At times, I think what norms are these?

They don’t give you anything; all they do is cease!

Again, I hear my heart say, “They might not give, but they have to be followed”

“Even if that means, one’s pride has to be swallowed”.

At times, I wonder how false the world around me has become.

And, then again I think, the worst is yet to come.

Will the time of goodness ever return?

Or will man continue to stand in a queue waiting for his turn.

His turn to show, how good and righteous he is,

When in reality he is a cheat and all he is looking for is personal bliss.

At times, I wonder does anyone really care for you.

My heart answers, “It’s all a put-on act by others, none of it is true”.

Then to myself, I think, why does one need to act?

My heart replies, “As that’s their tact!”

A tact that can fool you,

Make you think they’re nice and then cheat you.

Back-biting, cheating, cut-throat competition is the way of the world today,

No wonder, at times I think, when will it be my day,

The day, I can show goodness still prevails,

It is there and in my heart it hails.

At times, I wonder when will I break-free,

Break away from this dual act and just be carefree,

Carefree enough to speak my mind,

And, look out for happiness, as ultimately that’s all I really want to find!

At times, I think how will it be?

Guess what, I will just have to wait and watch to see.

Roma Kapadia is a freelance writer from Mumbai.  For the last eight years, she has been writing lifestyle pieces for several online publications including MSN India and Savvy. Roma loves to write about food, health & wellness, relationships and travel.  In addition to her BA in English Literature and advanced degree in Journalism, Roma also holds a certification in Tarot Card Reading.

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